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| "Sunrise, sunrise...I can see it in your eyes..." |
| 04.18.04 (1:30 pm) [edit] |
I just had a really weird conversation with Tori (short background: We were best friends in elementary school, but she moved to Sacramento after graduation. Her grandparents live around the corner from me, and she used to come down here A LOT. But I haven't seen her in almost a year, and I haven't visited her since the summer before hs.) Her and her family were on the ferry with my family yesturday on the way over to the baseball game. She must be back in Sacramento now, cause I just talked to her on AIM. She's saying how she's coming down again next weeked and that we should do something. I'm curious to see whether she'll follow through with that since she always says she's going to call when she's here (or she could always walk the 300 ft to my house) but never does. Anyway, then she asks when my last day of school is, I tell her my last final is on Wednesday morning of the 2nd, and she gets all excited and says that they're coming for Memorial Day weekend and they're going back on Monday afternoon, but her mom has to stay an extra day, don't know why, but if I want to, she can stay until Wednesday morning and I can go up to Sacramento for a few days and go to school with her and stuff. This just seems really random to me. I haven't seen her in a year, we talk maybe 3 or 4 times a month on IM and that's it. It just seems weird to me, almost like we're barely friends anymore, a little. Of course, then when we're hanging out, it's like we're in 5th grade again and no time has past and all that. I just don't know what to think of all this. Mostly just because the whole situation has thrown me for a loop. But I want to go...it's cool in Sacramento, and it will be fun seeing what her school is like and all that. Although, I'll have to see if she gives me the cold shoulder when she's down here next week. Uggggggggggh but then my mom will make me invite her to my bday party (if I have one) since it's like 2 weeks after that, but I can't do that because her and Jenny DO NOT get along and it would be like WW3.
I need to do this stupid english thing. it's been an hour and have like 3 sentences. this sucks. i am DREADING tomorrow. Although there are only 5 weeks left of school. but that means finals, which i'm going to fail since I missed 2 whole weeks of school. dammit :?
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| "Who lives in a pineapple under the sea? SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!" |
| 04.14.04 (2:37 pm) [edit] |
So I'm making a Livejournal. I've given in...however, it will just contain non important stuff. I'll leave the more personal stuff for here. Just because I don't think anyone checks this very much and I'm paranoid about the internet. You might ask why I even have one of these in the first place...well, if you find out, let me know. I guess I need some kind of outlet, and since I'm a writer, writing would make sense. But there's no way I'm keeping a pen and paper journal since there's more of a chance I'd lose it and someone would find it than someone would find this on here. Plus I don't even write THAT personal of stuff on here anyway. But even still, it's a little freaky knowing that ANYONE could be reading all this stuff about my life...really personal or not. This whole entry is making me double think why I do this since I don't really trust this whole "internet diary thing." Well, whatever. If you've read any of my other entries you know that nothing I do ever makes any sense anyway...
Why am I so against Livejournals? Only because EVERYONE has one. And I mean EVERYONE. How do I know? Because I've found them all...you find one person you know, click on their friends, find someone else you know, click on their friends and so on and so forth. (another reason to get a LJ...I've been leaving messages on ppls journals, but since I don't have one, I show up as anonymous, which probably freaks some people out that I look at their journals even though I dont have one...because they of course do not know about this one). So if I get a Livejournal then what happened to me will happen to some other person and they'll stumble across mine, and if I spill too much of my guts to the wrong person well...well the result is not really something I want to think about. I've been down that road before. But you get the picture.
Wow. I'm such a pessimist. I really really really really am a very cynical person. But things in my life have caused me to have this really "on guard" personality, where I'm just waiting for the worst to happen because I know it will because that's the way my life works. And if it doesn't turn out as bad as I expected to, then that's cool because I'm happy....I'm very pathetic aren't I? You don't know the half of it...I could go into my entire life history and explain every event that has contributed to why I am the way that I am, but I won't because that's the kind of aforementioned personal stuff I said I don't want to give away on here. Plus, I analyze people and things and situations to death, so I wouldn't want to contribute to my obsesssiveness about that. I think I'll be good in AP Psych next year because it will be like spending 55 minutes a day, four times a week, doing what I do when I space out in other classes...examining people's behavior, and what it "really" means, and how and why people do things and all that other fun stuff. I'm SUCH a wackjob. Hopefully I'm not the only one out there who is like this....
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| "The sun'll come out tomorrow, betchur bottom dollar that tomorrow, there'll be SUN..." |
| 04.10.04 (2:31 pm) [edit] |
The rumors are true. I AM alive. And I DON'T have mono. But I do have bronchitis (or pneumonia...the dr said he couldn't be sure which one it was since the only difference is where the infection is..the lungs or the bronchial tubes) and a sinus infection and for the first week I had the stomach flu complete with fever and everything. It was the sickest I've ever been in my life, but I feel much better now. But not 100%...I still have this cough. The main problem is the fact that since I've been in bed and doing nothing for about 12 days I have no energy and no strength to do anything else. It doesn't help that I can't eat...my appetite has shrunk because I wasn't eating anything when I was still throwing everything up and now I get full when I have something small. The good news is that when I do eat, I can only have fruit and vegetables and other high protein, high fiber stuff, and I can only drink water (unless I wanted to have a smoothie or something I suppose...) The EVEN BETTER news is that I get to spend all of my spring break at work and at home doing 6 classes X 9 days of school I missed worth's homework and stuff. Oh yes, this will be the BEST SPRING BREAK IN THE HISTORY OF SPRING BREAKS.
Happy Easter everyone :)
P.S. What's up with the play Holly? I would have called but...well it's kind of a long story. See, my counselor called to make sure I wasn't dead on Monday and asked how I was doing. I made the mistake of telling her that I was kind of stressed out with all the work I was missing and with everything that was going on (aka our play). She told me that I had to forget about what was going on otherwise I wouldn't get healthy and I'd wind up in the hospital and that I needed to focus on getting well, and it made sense. Not like there was anything I could do about it anyway...but I really want to know now. If we don't have anyone by now...I think we should call it off. I don't want to, but I don't see any other choice. Even if we find someone else, it will give us less than a month to get everything ready. Not to mention it's unlikely for someone to want to be in it if the first time they see the script only gives them a month to memorize all those lines. I was expecting to have gotten a good start by this point and to give everyone the break to really learn their lines....I don't know. I've been trying not to think about it that much. Let me know...and have fun in Cabo San Lucas (that IS where you're going, right? lol)
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| "We were both 16, it felt so right, sleeping in all day, staying up all niiiiight..." |
| 03.25.04 (4:56 pm) [edit] |
Does anyone else just cruise around ppl's online journals and find people that they know and read? To some extent it's a little strange...like you're not sure if it's ok to read it or not, and makes you wonder why they never told you about it. No one except Anna, Gab and Holly know about this, so it's a little weird to think who might be reading this...no big deal though. Not like I post anything *too* personal. In fact, not really sure why anyone would want to read it, it's very boring.
So I'm not going to Turnabout. Because dances are not all that fun to me (definitely not worth $13, which I need to save up for the Matches show). Even if I had money, I might not go. Not because someone won't be there (what difference would that make anyway...?) but just because my idea of fun isn't watching teachers trying to break up and stop kids from being "too vulgar" and all that other fun stuff that comes with high school dances. Casie's family is having a bbq so I'll probably go to that, and hopefully some fun other people will be there as well.
There's MORE work tomorrow, damn it, but I get to have lunch with Rhonda and Elisa from my old job, which I'm really looking forward to. I haven't seen them since the end of December. And I need a break from filing. It's incredibly boring. The worst thing about it is that I'm all alone. No one to talk to or go get lunch with or listen to or anything. It's just me alone with my thoughts, which is bad because I overanalyze things and think about things too much. I like to keep busy so that that never happens, but now it's happening for 2 hours a day, 3 times a week and I don't like it.
Friday night...not sure. Hannah still hasn't gotten back to me, but I've reserved that night to hang with her because we haven't seen each other in a while. I was thinking we could walk down the street and harass Nick like he used to do to us...for old times sake. LOL Then on Saturday morning, my dad said he would take me driving and me and Jenni were gonna go running I think. Then it's Alisons performance, then the barbeque. Jess and I might go shopping on Sunday (window shopping for me of course...she says she needs a new swimsuit. So do I, but I have no $$ remember...she wants to do breakfast after church, but I'm not sure I can afford that. She says she'll pay, but I don't want to do that either....) Oh yeah, not to mention that English paper, religion homework, 20 pages of reading in Western Civ, a French quiz, Chem questions and Geometry work to do...*sigh* I never have enough time for anything. Maybe I should start now. I think Jenni's either coming over for dinner or I'm going over there...we usually watch The OC after Youth Group, but there was none last night and my mom said I couldn't go over there (it was apparently too late...) so I think we'll watch The Apprentice tonight. Last week there was some stupid clip show, so hopefully it's new tonight. Oh, and the #3 favorite fan episode of Friends is on at 8. I'll most likely just tune it to see what it is and not watch the whole thing, since I probably have it on DVD anyway...
That's about it. I'm still freezing cold. I hate how it was like 90*a week ago and now its raining and about 50*...I think I'm gonna go make some hot chocolate. Mmmmm...later.
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| "cause I want it all...or nothing at all..." |
| 03.22.04 (6:43 pm) [edit] |
Here's one looooooong ass survey. I have so much shit to do, but I'm going to do this instead.
:.:::About You:::.:
Any nicknames?: um, i dont really have any
How old are you?: 15
Whats your birthday?: June 18, 1988
Whats your horscope sign?: Gemini
Whats your chinese horscope?: Dragon
Where were you born?: London, England
Do you have any pets?: Yes, a dog
If so, whats their names and what kind are they?: Murphy, he's a golden retreiver
Do you have any sibilings?: 1 sister & 1 brother
How old are they?: 13(sis) & 12(bro)
Are you the middle, oldest, youngest, or only child?: Oldest
Where do you live now?: California
:.:::Your Looks:::.:
What color is your hair?: Brownish, with like a reddish undertone. it's weird to describe
Whats the length?: Long...maybe 4 or 5 inches past my shoulders
Whats the style?: It's layered, and wavy when i dont straighten it
Have you ever dyed it?: Nope
Whens the last time you got it cut?: About a month and a half ago...i need to get it cut again soon though
How are you wearing your hair now?: Down
Whats your dream hair?: I want one of those cuts that are layered to just about the shoulders and then all flippy. those are so pretty, but i wouldnt have the time or the patience to style it every day
What color are your eyes?: Blue
Do you have glasses?: contacts
Do you wear contact lens?: yes
Whats your height?: 5'5"
Do you wish you were taller or shorter?: sometimes just a little shorter, then i can wear heels without becoming really tall
Do you have braces or a retainer?: i have a retainer i should wear, but dont
Do you have any piercings?: My ears, but i have worn earrings since forever so i wouldnt be surprised if they closed up
Do you have any tattoos?: definitely not
Whats your skin tone?: white...whitest of the white
:.:::For Girls on Looks:::.:
Do you wear any makeup?: occasionally, but only coverup and lipgloss, sometimes mascara
Whats your fave lipgloss?: Benefit
Whats your fave perfume?: Clinique Happy, that new Pacsun stuff and Abercrombie
Do you paint your nails?: mostly just my toenails
:.:::Clothing, shoes, and accesories:.:::
Whats your fave brand of clothing?: I cant really choose just one...probably Abercrombie, although not so much lately
What are you wearing now?: Blue collared shirt and jeans
Where do you like to shop for clothes: Ae, Aeropostale, Abercrombie, Nordstroms, Macys, Express
Whats your clothing style(s)?: Preppy most of the time
Whats your fave kind of shoes?: dont really have one...
Whats your fave brand of shoes?: Steve madden
Do you wear any jewelry?: not really, i lose most of it
If so, what kinds?: mostly rings and bracelets
Whats your fave winter outfit?: jeans and boots and a cute jacket or something
Whats your fave summer outfit?: skirt, sandals and a tank top
Whats your fave sping outfit?: capris and zip up sweater
Whats your fave fall outfit?: jeans, flip flops and a tshirt
:.:::Food, Glorious Food!:::.:
Whats your all time fave food?: Chicken Alfredo
Whats your fave meat?: Chicken
Whats your fave veggies?: Snopeas
Whats your fave fruit?: Rasperries and grapes
Whats your fave ice cream?: Mint Chocolate Chip
Whats your fave candy?: Cookies and Cream Bar
Whats your fave dessert?: Brownies
Whats your fave cereal?: Frosted Flakes
Whats your fave fast food?: In N Out
Whats your fave soda?: Coke
What your fave bottled water?: Crystal geyser
Whats your fave dinner resturant?: Hilltop Cafe or Salutes
Wheres your fave place to eat breakfast?: that stinson beach place
Whats your fave breakfast food?: eggs, hash browns and bacon
Whats your fave lunch food?: tuna sandwich and chips
Whats your fave dinner food?: Chicken Alfredo
Isnt Macaroni yummy?: yes
:.:::Sports:::.:
Do you play any sports?: like on a team? no
Whats your fave sports?: football, baseball(it gets boring after a while though) and soccer
Whos your fave athlete?: Brett Farve
Whats your fave sport to watch on TV?: football.
:.:::Movies:::.:
Whats your all time fave movie?: Ooooh. Too hard to pick just one. Rudy, Meet the Parents, or Zoolander
Whats your fave genre of movies?: Comedy and romantic "chick flick" movies
Whats the last movie you saw in theatres?: Starsky and Hutch???
Have you ever been to the IMAX theatres?: yes
Do you have DVD's or VHS's?: DVD's
Whats your fave family movie?: hmmm...Carpool probably
Whats your fave animated movie?: Cinderella
Whats your fave action movie?: Pirates of the Caribbean (that's action, right?)
Whats your fave drama movie?: Rudy
Whats your fave horror movie?: dont like horror
:.:::Music:::.:
Whats your fave genre of music?: rock...all kinds of rock
Whats your fave band?: Good Charlotte
Whats in your CD player now?: My new Mind Driver CD
Whats your fave CD?: Young and the Hopeless
Whos your fave singer?: Clay Aiken (don't laugh...i dunno what it is about him. so unlike anything else i listen to)
What songs do you like? (name about 3 or 4): "Oaktown" KGB, "Yeah" Usher, "The Remedy" Jason Mraz, "Hey Mama" Black Eyed Peas
:.::::School:::.:
What grade are you in?: 10th
What school do you go to?: MC
Do you like school?: Not really
Whats your fave class?: English and Western Civ
Whats your least fave class?: CHEM and religion
Whats the coolest thing about school next year?: I dunno...i'll be able to drive to school
WHat school will you be at next year?: MC
Do you ever sleep during your classes?: Yeah, no comment haha
Does your school have good food?: its ok, but hella $$$
Whats the coolest thing about your school?: hmm, i dunno
Do you have lockers?:yes
Do you usually have alot of homework?: yes. most of the time
Is school easy?: no......well some classes more than otheres
What time does school start?: 8am
When does it end?: 2:50
:.:::Word Association:::.:
duck:: feet
banana:: fruit
bed:: head
friend:: forever
pencil:: eraser
cloud:: 9
puppy:: love
fire:: truck
arcade:: game
butterfly:: wings
wrestling:: match
summer:: love
lamp:: shade
:.::::This or That:::.:
Punk or Goth?: Punk
Pop or Rock?: rock
Dogs or Cats?: Dogs
Girls or Boys?: wow, that totally depends
Chocolate or Vanilla?: vanilla
Yahoo or Hotmail?: hotmail
Email or telephone?: both..
Music or Movies?: Movies
Plaid or Stripes?: Stripes
Wrestling or Boxing?: Boxing
MTV or VH1?: mtv
Happy or Sad?: Happy
Britney or Christina?: Christina
Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings?: HP!!! (ooooh what would alison say???)
Sweet or Sour?: Sweet
Spicy or Sweet?: Sweet
White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate or Dark Chocolate?: Milk or White Chocolate
Burger King or McDonalds?: BK....have it your way! haha
Pepsi or Coke?: Coke
Avril Lavigne or Fefe Dobson?: Fefe
Hilary Duff or Lindsay Lohan?: eeeeeeeeeew definitely Lindsay
Playstation or XBox or Nintendo?: Playstation
Old or New?: old or new what?
Black or White?: Black
:.:::Your Top 3 Favorites:::.:
Foods?: Italian, Chineese, American
Songs?: didnt i already write down songs?
Drinks?: water, juice, coke
Movies?: i did this one too...
Animals?: Dogs...i dunno what else. platypuses and sea otters. lol
Books?: All Princess Diaries, Sloppy Firsts, Second Helpings
Magazines?: Teen People YM, & Seventeen
Bubble Gum?: i dont know....
Fast Food?: Subway, In N Out..Taco Bell
Cereal?: Raisin Bran, Lucky Charms, Frosted Flakes
Pop Tart?: dont like pop tarts
Hot Pocket?: yuck
Pizza Topping?: cheese, bbq chick (yeah CPK) and tomato and bacon (yay red boy!)
Candies?: Milkey Way, Twix, and cookies and Creme
Authors?: I dunno right now...i'm sick of this. lol
School Subjects?: English, Western Civ, Acting
Holidays?: My Birthday, Christmas, New Years
Days of the Week?: Friday, Saturday, & Sunday
CD's?: both of Gc's, Linkin Park
Singers?: I KNOW i did this one...lol
Bands?: GC, LP, Matches
Video Games?: NFL Street!
Colors?: blue, orange, black
TV Shows?: FRIENDS, OC, The Apprentice
Flowers?: Tulips, Daffodils, Roses
:.:::TV:::.:
Whats your fave TV show?: Friends
Whats your fave game show?: Jeopardy or Wheel Of Fortune
Whats your fave sports show?: Best Damn Sports Show...LOL
Whos your fave TV star: ADAM BRODY
Do you have a TV in your room?: Yes
How many TV's are in your house?: 5...lol
Have you ever been on TV?: on the news...
How many hours a day do you watch TV?: depends what day...and too much
Has anyone you know ever been on TV?: Yes
:.:::Your Friends:::.:
How many friends form school do you have?:um, i dont keep count
Whos your best friend?: dont have best friends, i dont value one over the other
Which friend have you known the longest?: Jenni
:.:::Your Family:::.:
Are your parents divorced or seperated?: neither
Do you love your family?: Yes very much...
Are you an aunt or an uncle?: Nope
Do you have any nephews or nieces?: Not yet...
THAT WAS LOOOOOOOOONG. Wow I wasted so much time doing that. I needed to though. My job is so boring. just taking a bunch of file folders out of drawers and organizing them and putting them in boxes....ahhh. and I'm all alone which makes everything that much more boring. Oh well...lots of money that I need for a car. lol Now off to do all my work I have to do...and call Holly to tie up the loose ends of the play
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| "Can I finally step away, to this cold December daze..." |
| 03.21.04 (11:32 am) [edit] |
That's part of a Mind Driver song. I saw them last night. They rocked so I bought a CD. And then I saved my money so I could buy a KGB CD, but they didn't sell them. Noooo they threw them out to the crowd for free, but didn't want to make any money off of selling them. w/e. That makes ABSOLUTELY no sense to me. They are soooo good too. I'll have to see if I can burn it off someone. Not Jacqueline (person who I originally heard of them from) because it would be weird for me to just randomly call her and ask to burn a CD....hopefully Kaylie has it or can get a hold of it somewhere. All in all, I guess it was a good night. I had fun. Besides the totally random comments my mom was making...do you see now why it's so hard to keep my mouth shut? Because it's just the most ridiculous crap ever, I don't know what she's saying or why she's saying it, it makes no sense. *sigh*
Anyway, here's some random quotes from last night that might make you laugh...they made me laugh at least.
Random chick: What school do you go to?
Me: MC
Her: Oh, I'm sorry.
Me: Uh...it's not that bad. Where do you go?
Her: Branson
Me (thinking to myself): WTF??
Me, after seeing a freshmen in my acting and geometry class: Hi Ali!
Her: OMG! HI! Wow I wouldn't expect to see you here.
Me(in my head): WTF?
Anna (while the band's still playing): Jenni, do you have this CD?
Jenni: YEA!
Anna (band stops playing) yells: CAN I BURN THIS CD????
Some random guy: HEY, just cause I'm a republican does NOT mean I'm easy!
People who my sister know: LET'S MOSH! *start jumping up and down and screaming*
Andrew, lead singer of HW2NW: What should we play for our last song? Vernal Equinox or Picture Perfect? Who wants Picture Perfect?
Jenni: *SCREAMS* (but she's the only one)
Andrew: ooooook...who wants Vernal Equinox?
Everyone else: *SCREAMS*
Jenna (other Jenna): Hey! Watch out! Cripple here! Maybe I should keep my foot out and trip you so you know how it feels to have a broken knee cap!
Brandon: Space Cadet! SPACE CADET! SPACE CADET GODAMMIT!
Me: I don't think they're gonna play space cadet...
Bradon: SPACE CADET! SPACE CADET....
Dude from KGB: ok, here's one for the ladies...
Brandon: YOU JUST PLAYED ONE FOR THE LADIES!!!
Another random chick: That's cause he likes the ladies...
Wow, there were quite a lot of random people there...lol.
Gooooooood times...and the countdown to The Matches is ON! I can't wait...well, it's time to go do some hw and get some driving time in. I haven't been driving in a while. How exciting!
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| You're not hard core, no you're not hard core, unless you live hard core, unless you live hard core |
| 03.18.04 (5:22 pm) [edit] |
Quick question...has Anna moved to LiveJournal or has she just not made any blog entries in forever?? Anna are you out theeeeeeeere?
Well, today wasn't very eventful. I had to do my clown interview. I think it's prolly the best improv I've ever done. Certainly the most random. I won't even attempt to explain it without seeming like a crackhead (which I'm definitely NOT)
We watched some more of that stupid boring French movie. I'm completely unaware of what's even going on anymore...then it was time for the geometry test, which I hope I did well on. I always seem to make stupid dumb mistakes, which really bugs the crap out of me.
Then we got our data match things. I got so many different kinds of people...kinda creepy. One very NOT creepy person though, which I was very happy with. Not like I need a Datamatch thing to tell me that though...it was something I already knew ;) lol
Chemistry was as boring as ever. Found out we need to bring back our stoichiometry skills for molarity. Shit. I wasn't good at it then, I'm sure as hell not good at it now, especially since I've forgotten the little that I knew back in October. ZZZZZzzzzzz...quiz tomorrow, which I'm not looking forward too, but we can make it up, so that's good. I think I'll definitely need to, since I prolly wont get to study much since I have a grande Western Civ test that I will most likely bomb as well. I can tell tomorrow won't be a good day...
Mr Rush made me feel bad about wasting my 3 dollars on the Data Match, because I could have fed an orphan child in the Philipines for a day with the money I just wasted on discovering my "soulmates" Then he talked about how bad cheating in his class is. Hmmm wonder why? Cause all your tests are so freaking hard! *sigh* Not like I cheat, or need to for that matter, but seriously...I really do think he needs to be a college theoretical theology professor. (I think that was superflous...ooh english vocab word, gold star for me...theology IS theory haha wow I'm random)
So here I am. Contemplating what the hell we're going to do about our play. I want to do it, I think it would end up working and we'd have more liberties as directors if we could change the script along the way, but there's that one little casting problem. Hopefully everything will work out. I'm off to study for Western Civ...please pray that I don't fail. I don't know any of the Kings or anything like that, so I'm pretty screwed.
Oh, and I got a new job! Yay! It's at Autodesk again, and I don't think it will be near as much fun as the internship because a) I don't get to work with other interns my age and "bond" with them b)I don't get to have free lunches at fancy restaurants, like the one at McInnis Park Golf Course, to get ppl to donate money to us and c)it's just filing papers and doing clerical work instead of having meetings with people and actually doing things that web designers/web architects/marketing dept ppl do in their careers on a day to day basis. But hey, it beats the hell out of working at McDonalds (not that there's anything wrong with that, I just don't think its something I'd want OR be good at).
P.S. I have GOT to stop writing like 15 minute entries. LOL
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| "Hold me now, I'm 6 ft from the edge and I'm thinking, maybe 6 feet aint so far down" |
| 03.16.04 (4:24 pm) [edit] |
So I'm supposed to be teaching CCD in 22 minutes...*sigh* It's just down the street, I'll just leave later. I'm to freaking tired and lazy to be in the mood to do anything, let alone spending an hour telling 2nd graders who would rather be playing 4-square (or whatever games 7 year olds play) instead of preparing for their First Holy Communion. I shouldn't be so cynical...they're really cool kids (they like NOFX and Sugarcult and AFI...why wasn't I that awesome when I was 7???) but I'm just SO not in the mood. On top of a crap load of work that I have to do. I probably won't get a chance to go running or anything even later, that's how much stuff I have to do. I wish I was a genius so I could create a machine to add more time onto the day (only my day...it would be totally counterproductive to add time for everyone 'cause then there would just be more stuff to do...)
I really hope Amanda feels better...poor thing had food poisoning on her Sweet Sixteen :( That would suck so much...I was sick on Christmas once, that wasn't fun, but not nearly as bad as this. We'll have to eat the cake if she's not back because a) I'm not bringing it back to school for a fourth day! and b) It's going to be all moldy and dead...me and Gab were joking how ironic it would be if WE all got food poisoning from the cake...
What else...what else...nothing really. I'm very excited to see Grease. I think it'll be really good. Maria was worrying today that she was going to mess up on "Beauty School Dropout." I'm sure she won't...she's a great singer. I wish I could sing that well.
Oh yeah. I had a very scary dream last night. Well, it was just like when were talking about Turnabout and Alison asked me whether I was asking him, and I said "No Way!" but he was at his locker (which in the dream was opposite from where we sit, when it's actually no where near there) and someone made me go ask him (I can't remember who...OH! It was Cathy, which is especially weird since she doesn't even know) and I did it, and he laughed and walked away. I woke up at like 4:30 in the morning...my heart was racing and my palms were all sweaty and stuff. THANK GOD it was only a dream. You know sometimes when its hard to tell whether something really happened or you just dreamed it? Yeah, thats what it was like...I was freaking out cause I couldnt remember whether I had really ruined my life, or just dreamt it and I was still half asleep. But that was definitely the scariest dream I've had in a LONG time.
Ok, 11 minutes. I should probably go...ugh.....
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| "It took some time for her to see, how happy love could truly be..." |
| 03.12.04 (4:47 pm) [edit] |
So it looks like every one has abandoned me and I'm blogging by myself. Fine then...I don't need you! I don't need anyone! I'm gonna make it all on my OWN! (sorry Friends moment when Pheobe was helping Joey reherse for something...)
Anyway!
I decided that I don't really want to go to Turnabout. Dances really aren't that much fun (actually they can be somewhat depressing at times) and yeah, I went to Homecoming, but whatever. At least they aren't as bad as TL's. Don't know why I go to those either...but yeah. I haven't decided fully, it's just something I'm contemplating...
I had a really good conversation with Amanda today at lunch when all the rest of you were listening to the band. It's too bad we're only getting to be friends this year because she's so nice and we have so much in common. Not just that we're both obssessed with Friends either :wink: Just we think alike and stuff...it mucho sucks about tomorrow. *sigh*
Then Ms. Kearney tells us about her epiphany: she should give us more quizzes. Ugh. So instead of grading our homework assignments (which I wasn't aware she did in the first place) she's checking to make sure we did it and then we'll have a quiz on it. Great. Just what I need. More homework and stuff to do...and like Kevin pointed out, I need the homework points to bring up my grade. If the quizzes are going into the homework grade, it's going to bring the hw grade down, bringing my entire grade down. She seems to think that this will help everyone's grades though.... :roll:
That's about it. Holly we need to work on our play and make it funnier...dammit. I wish I were more funny. I guess I can be funny at times, but I can't really write funny things. Like she said, we need to find a really funny person to help us. Hmmm...where can we find someone like that? :shock:
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| "This love has taken it's toll on me, she said goodbye, too many times before..." |
| 03.10.04 (2:12 pm) [edit] |
So auditions were yesturday. It was fun, for the most part. I think that Ashley's play is definitely going to win (not like I'm trying to win cause I know we won't) because it was funny as hell. They're going to have a hard time deciding which ppl to use cause they were all so great. Chase's is amusing too. Maybe a little off the wall, but funny nonetheless. Then theirs ours. Hmm. That's all I'm going to say about that. We're the only one it seems that needs girls, and only 3 of them. There was at least 3 times the amount of girls auditioning than guys. Ugh. Then a lot of other drama that I won't even go into on here. This is sort of crumbling before it's even begun. Auditions Part II are tomorrow. I sorta want to pick another part of the play for ppl to read...
I have a vocab and the religion test tomorrow. I don't even think I'll study for religion since most people are going to do really bad as well, so the curve will help us all. He should just make the tests easier and less impossible and do without the curve. That might motivate me to study and actually learn something instead of relying on the fact that everyone else is going to do as badly as I am.
Well, my new favorite AI person is Matthew Metzger. OMG we're talking like one of the hottest guys ever. Oh and he can sing as well. He better make it into the top 12 otherwise I'll be really mad.
That's about it. The assembly was lots of fun. As Alison said "I can't beleive we have so many talented people at this school." It's so true. I only wish I was half as talented as any one of them. It kinda bothered me when people around me were saying that things were bad, and when the freshmen (were they freshmen?) were going "Uh, that's NOT funny" when the guys were doing Improv. It's SO hard to do that (I know from everyday experience in Acting) especially in front of the entire school. Every last one of every person was extremely gifted and what they were doing, and the fact that they have the guts to do it in front of everyone is that much cooler, so it frustrated me when people were being so critical.
I'm so mad about Saturday. :( Although I guess it's my fault. This is probably one of the only things that I've ever gotten into trouble for that I can take responsibility for. Not the not being responsible part, just the general fact that I should be helping out more around the house and keeping my room clean and stuff (not to the same degree they want me to though). The "new driving rule" majorly sucks however...my sister was right, she WILL have her license before me at this rate.
One last thing and then I promise to stop...I didn't realize how many people went to the Britney concert last night. There were at least 50 people wearing shirts, and prolly more who went that weren't wearing shirts. I heard that it wasn't much...Annika said it was like soft porn and not only was I not suprised, it was almost like I had expected it to be like that. She also said there were really old guys there. Yuck. I'd be scared...
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| "Friendship is rare, do you know what I'm saying? Friendship is rare..." |
| 03.07.04 (12:28 pm) [edit] |
I'm feeling like a bad friend. Jenny wants to come shadow me next Monday because they don't have school and for some reason, I just have this feeling like I don't want her to come. What's so interesting, I don't get it. She already came last year, and on her one day off, she wants to spend it at school? This isn't like last time either...last year it was Liturgy and the day before spring break so there were like 3 classes and we didn't really do anything in any of them. But I might end up having tests and stuff. Last time all she wanted to do was write notes to me and stuff. Ugh. I just don't get it. She wants to come and "hang out" but it's school and not an opportunity to do that I guess. On the other hand, I feel really bad because I don't want her there and that makes me feel like I'm a bad person. :cry:
I saw The Passion of the Christ with my mom, Jenni's mom and Jenni (maybe that's why...cause it seems like we're together ALL the time...). It really wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, granted, I shut my eyes at probably the most gruesome part. But it was intense. It's just like this feeling you get after it's done. It's hard to explain, but it's like there's no release of emotions (ooooh catharsis! who knew I'd use an English vocab word!) after it's over. Usually you kinda snap back to reality and stuff, but it's like you're still in that mode when you leave the theater. But I do think it's hyped up to be a lot worse than it actually is. Not that it isn't really horrible, but I was expecting it to be more so.
I've decided that for my birthday I'm going to have a sleepover and then go to the Dipsea for breakfast. There are two problems with this. I can probably only invite like 8 or 9 people since no more can fit in my house or in our cars. This is assuming my mom doesn't still want to do that big party, but since everything that's recently happened, she probably won't be in the mood to give me a party. She'd prolly invite people I don't even know anyway.
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| "Hangin out...down the street...same ol' thing...as we did last week" |
| 03.05.04 (4:56 pm) [edit] |
Hmm I'll just do a class by class one today.
English- Surprise little group test thing. I think I did okay, although everyone else's essay was better than mine. I wasn't really sure what I was talking about and was unable to phrase things properly so early in the morning. The shit really hit the fan when I found out my grade. In retrospect, I probably freaked out, but it's frustrating that's it's about 6% or more lower than it should be because I was an idiot and messed up complex and compound sentences back in january.
Acting- Stupid freshmen freaking over stupid arbitrary things. ugh.
French- Fun times writing to our penpals. Especially Marika's tres magnifique letter about her 20 year old boyfriend Fergusen. LOL
Geometry- Good story about Mr. MacD thinking he was buying a supercool baseball glove for his son. "This is really great Dad...but I'm not left-handed"
Chem- zzzzzzzzz. That's all I really remember. Something about acids and bases. Found out I have a 95.1, which is very very screwed up. I feel like such a horrible person since I understand nothing in that class yet seem to be doing well without doing anything, when other people like Alison work way harder and understand so much more than I do aren't rewarded as much for their efforts. Life is so unfair. I'd be ok with a B in that class because I know it'd be what I deserved. This whole situation makes me really guilty and I dunno...weird.
Religion- Prosecution did a better job today. But not well enough to win. Even Theresa's emotion-filled closing argument didn't make a difference (although it was the best thing the prosecution did). Jury voted 100% for aquittal.
So here I am. Going to get started on some hw since I can't do anything else. I write in this thing a lot. lol
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| "You go out on Friday night, I'll stay in but thats alright, I have found a clique to call my own" |
| 03.04.04 (4:16 pm) [edit] |
This is part of the reason I tend to snap sometimes at my parents. So about 10 minutes ago, I'm in the kitchen, and I realize that acceptance letters for MC are getting mailed next week. My sister tries the whole "woe is me" act, thinking that she's not going to get in. Yeah, right. I start naming of people x, y and z who seemed not to have a hope in hell of making it, yet there they are anyway. She says it's because they play sports. I'm like "you play a lot more sports than I do and I got accepted" trying to prove a point to her. Then my mom says "yeah, but you probably made up some story."
Think about that for a second. What the hell does that even mean? If you have a guess, feel free to let me know cause I sure don't.
So I'm like "Uh...what?" and she goes "you know very well what" I said "Are you saying that I lied about playing more sports than I did on my application to get into MC?" and she's like "You probably said that you were still on the swim team as well as basketball and soccer." I seriously didn't know how to respond rationally to this. I said that it was completely inappropriate (although that might not have been the right word) for her to think that I had lied on my application. And then she got mad and told me that these kind of "outbursts" are why I'm not allowed to drive and that I need to start behaving more maturely and stop with the childish antics. I'm sure she didn't mean it exactly as it came out, but I'm still offended. And a little mad because this is not good for my case to get to go to Amanda's.
On a different note, hopefully this will make you laugh as much as it did for me.
"Let's say you're driving to school in the morning and you see a red light, stop briefly and then go through again. And lets say there's a boy scout down the road. And you flatten him like a pancake...no wait, you take out an 18-37 and shoot him" ~Mr. Thompson
I wish I knew what context that was taken from because I wasn't really paying attention. LOL I'm pretty sure it was about a citizen's obligation to follow laws...but I can't be certain.
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| "Say you will, say you might, but please don't say goodbye tonight" |
| 03.01.04 (7:20 pm) [edit] |
Ok, I refuse to do more research for western civ, so I'm taking a study break. Here's one of those little time thingers tracking my day.
7:45 I literally bite my tongue to keep from saying something sarcastic to my dad about not stopping all the way at a stop sign (he always yells when I don't completely stop the car and wait 2 seconds after it comes to a COMPLETE stop to begin moving again, even though he, nor any other sane driver, ACTUALLY does that) but I manage to resist since I'm in enough trouble as it is.
8:15 Copy down the big long list of vocab words. Later feel stupid because instead of copying them down on paper and THEN onto flashcards, I could have just copied them straight onto flashcards and saved myself a ton of time.
9:10 I decide 'Move Your Butt' is my favorite "warm up" game we play in drama. Close second to Elbow Tag
9:20 Cyrus keeps his clown trick top secret, and only tells me he thought of it while drinking snapple last night.
9:25 I think about what his trick could be.
9:30 Somewhat dissappointed when it's just snapping the top so it makes this popping noise (although the point of the exercise was to do something stupid)
10:35 I should have known it was too good to be true that I wouldn't have to do any work if I was on the jury in our fake trial in religion. We have a whole article to read and answer questions on. Serves me right for being lazy and trying to avoid doing work.
11:30 Fall asleep while watching one of those movies in the series with that crack smoking English guy popping up out of bushes.
1:50 I walk into geometry and I see my little Dream House floor plan thing on the wall. Crap. Which is what it looks like too. It looks ridiculous next to all of the good ones up there, and I wonder why he even put mine up there at all.
3:22. Waiting for the eye dr.
3:29 Really hungry.
3:31 Ask mom to go get a pretzel or something but she says no
3:36 Start drumming on my lap with my hands. I can telll I'm pissing off the receptionist.
3:38 The receptionist tells me to stop. How rude.
3:43 I overhear him talking to his girlfriend or someone on the phone and it sounds like they're in a fight or they broke up, so I start to feel bad about thinking he was rude.
3:46 Still waiting
3:51 Finally, a half hour late.
4:17 After trying on about 5 million pairs of lenses, I go with the same ones I have now in my right, and some new ones in the left.
4:19 He gives me this nifty contact lense cleaner machine.
5:27 The new lense starts to hurt so I put the old one back in, and realize that I'm back to square one and I wasted about an hour and a half.
6:00 CCD meeting time. Very boring
6:42 It gets out early because no one is talking.
6:53 Mmmmm dinner, chicken alfredo my fave.
7:14 I'm sick of doing research so I take a break and write a blog.
Everything you wanted to know about my day, plus more you didn't want to
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| "This is the song that never ends, it just goes on and on my friends..." |
| 02.27.04 (6:24 pm) [edit] |
I'm bored and she's still at some sort of practice or whatever she's always busy doing, so here's my survey thing.
name? emma
birthday? - June 18 1988
siblings? - brother and sister
hair color? - its brown, and blonde and a little red at the same time
eye color? - blue
height? - 5'5
been kissed? nope
been in love? nope to that too
done drugs? - nope
eaten an entire box of oreos? - no, my limit is 3.
had sex? - nope
been dumped? - nope (sheesh, this is getting repetitive)
been in a car accident? - ay caramba....yes
dyed your hair? - no
ran around nakked in front of people ?- i'm sure i did at one point when I was younger...MUCH younger
gone to school in pajamas? - pajama day
gotten in detention? - nope nope nope
loved someone so much that you cried? yeah
THiS OR THAT . .(the boring stuff)
cold.hot - cold
blue.red what do you think? blue
rain.snow either
give.receive - give
wool.cotton - cotton
rose.daisy - rose
private.public school private
chocolate milk.regular milk - regular
spring.fall - fall
history.science - history!!! down with science!
math.english english
coke.pepsi coke....although I gave up soda for lent
cherry.vanilla - vanilla
sprite.7up - 7up
love.lust - love
sleep.eat - oooooh. hard one! sleep though
OPPOSiTES ATTRACT . .
do you like someone right now? yes
what do you look for in the opposite sex? someone who is confident in themselves, funny, smart and a nice smile
is this person your boyfriend/girlfriend? HA! Is the pope hindu?
WiTHiN THE LAST 24 HOURS . .
had a serious talk? i dont think so
hugged someone? - yea
missed someone? - yeah
fought with a friend? - nope
felt empty? - yeah, its not fun
DO YOU LiKE TO . .
give hugs? - yup
give back rubs? - i'm not sure I've ever given one, but what the heck...yes
take walks in the rain? - yep, especially at night
go to the beach? - ooo yes
watch TV? - yes,and i watch too much
do homework? - definitely not, but I care about my grades so I always do it
play in the snow ?- its a tid bit nippy but yep!
kiss? - wish i knew
do freaky things?- sounds kinky.
be wild? not especially. i'm not a big risk taker
HAVE YOU EVER . .
been to a concert? - yup, good times good times
been out of state? yes
gone skinny dipping? - no
met a famous person? i dont think so
bought something then sold it? does buying lemonade to sell count?
stole from someone or somewhere? - nope
stalked someone? regardless of what others say, no ;)
LOVE . .
single or taken? - unfortunetly single
if you were gonna go out with someone who would it be ? you're REALLY slow if you don't know this one....anyone who could possibly be reading this, well, yeah...i guess you'll never know
have you had an online relationship? - nope
believe in love at first site? yes...it's called lust
think a person can stay faithful ? why couldn't they?
NOW...
where are you ? in the living room. watching Full House. hehe it's so cheesy
are you wearing any jewelry? - ring
when was the last time you showered? - about an hour ago
what colors pants are you wearing? jeans
what song are you listening to?- nothing, Full House is on
what was the last thing you said? "bye" when jessica called
what is your computer desk made of? wood
what was the last thing you ate? my sandwich at lunch. which reminds me, i'm hungry
what would you really want to be doing right now? - eating. lol. no...probably hanging with Piera since she's not here yet and I don't know where she is...
if you were a crayon, what color would you be? - wth? i have no idea.
who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?- i've never given it that much thought. i have a while to figure it out.
are you glad this survey is over? - not really, i'm still bored. lol
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| "If God is a DJ, life is a dance floor, love is the rhythm, you are the music" |
| 02.27.04 (4:56 pm) [edit] |
Let's see how interesting my day was. I'll try to make it as interesting as possible, but no promises.
6:35 Alarm clock goes off. Dido is singing. Blech. I take it as a sign from God that I'm not destined to get up yet and hit the snooze button.
6:40 A really old Smashmouth song is playing. I take this as another sign and hit the snooze button for the second time.
6:45 The song that is the title of this blog begins to play and I decide to stop thinking everything is a sign because it's late and I have to get ready. Of course, that song is stuck in my head (at least for a few hours...keep reading)
7:20 I put my hand out to nonverbally say "can I drive" and I'm informed that my driving privaleges have been revoked until further notice. You guessed right...because I'm not responsible. Apparently, I need to make sure that all the chores in the house are done before I do my homework and if my homework doesn't get done, oh well, because helping out around the house should be my first priority. (no, that wasn't supposed to make any sense. It's hard to pick up on sarcasm when you type...)
8:10 Trying to decide which vocab word to put on the board, which shouldn't be hard but is for some reason. Cathy says gralloch is a verb, but I know it's used as a noun.
8:25 We discuss The Apprentice. I think it's unfair that people are getting kicked off for stupid reasons that are completely outside what they did in the task. Cathy disagrees, I think. Sometimes it's hard to tell.
9:00 Crap. There's a test in acting that I was not aware of. I didn't do too well, which is very bad since they are incredibly easy.
9:30 We do some movement exercise. Part of it was to gravitate towards someone. Cyrus comes up to me, and then Alex and Fairy and some freshmen are like "No, I'm following her!"which creeped me out a little.
9:50 Someone is singing Black Eyed Peas "Hey Mama" and that becomes the song that is stuck in my head for the rest of the day.
10:45 We debate what SPCA stands for in French class. I say Society for the Protection against cruelty to animals, but everyone else says society for the protection and care of animals.
12:20 Mr. Thompson helps me with my term paper. I got there first, which was good since there was like 6 people waiting there when we were done.
12:35 We debate gay marriage. Very hard not to laugh when Gabrielle told Cathy that she shouldnt let her religion dictate her beleifs, since pretty much her only argument was that the Pope said so, which I don't have a problem with, just that I agreed with Gab that she should think for herself (not that she isn't, it just seemed like that a little to me)
1:10 Found out Ms. Kearney could bark.
1:20 Realized that I could make a really cool checkerboard thing on the left side of my lab notebook (the blank page that she wont let us write on, which sucks since it's wasting trees) But I put it to good use and found something more interesting to do than listen to chemistry. (the question is...what isn't better than listening to chemistry?)
1:50 Ms. Kearney actually barked and scared the crap out of me. It was funny at the same time though.
1:55-2:50 - Zoned out in religion like usual. Actually it was more like a comatose state where I'd suddenly become concious, but then drift back into the coma again. I signed up to be the jury on the trial of Jesus reenactment, cause I figured that would be the least amount of speaking.
2:51- Packing away my stuff. Look in my planner and see I have a lot of homework. :cry: I never have time to do it, then I end up staying up until midnight on Sunday getting it all finished...
4:50 - At home and bored, waiting for this evening. I have no idea what we are doing though. Ooooh I hope we can make brownies. She makes the best brownies and I always end up burning them so we have this little joke that I'm the grasshopper and she's the cricket. You know, those kung Fu movies..."I am very impressed, you grasshopper. You have learned much from my teaching."
There. Told ya it was boring.
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| "It's my life, it's now or never, I ain't gonna live forever..." |
| 02.23.04 (5:55 pm) [edit] |
Wow. Just when I thought I couldn't get any more uncoordinated. I was just running with my dog and tripped over him. I guess he must have stopped all of a sudden to smell some flowers (he often does that) and I stumbled over him and fell. Luckily most of me landed in someone's grass, so that wasn't too bad. And that my friends, is why I do not do track, especially hurdles. OMG I can see it now...me falling every meet, battle scars all over my legs and arms to prove it. LOL
I have to say that I'm very relieved that Mrs Kizer liked the play. I was hesitant that she (or anyone) would. Part of me thinks she might be just saying that it's good even though it's not, but I hope not. And Holly, I'm totally not saying that I thought the play was bad, cause your part rocks and is way funnier than mine (I LMAO everytime I think of the slashing tires joke) but I was really hesitant about it. I'm like that with everything I do, mostly because I write way more than I should but never really share anything I've written with anyone, so this whole writing and directing thing is sorta weird to me. That's why I'm so glad we're doing it together :) It'll be bunches more fun this way! I'm so excited! YAY! auditions are next week...hopefully we get good people...
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| "These are the moments, cherish them, we'll remember for the rest of our restless lives" |
| 02.14.04 (10:22 pm) [edit] |
Well. I thought we were leaving tomorrow but it turns out we aren't. I was curious why I was the only one packing and then everyone's like "we'll do it tomorrow" and I'm like "wow, that's a little late, don't you think? are you gonna do it right before we leave or something?" and then they inform me that we aren't leaving until Monday. I'm hecka smart.
I'm mad because my dad says he won't take me drving tomorrow since he has too much stuff to do :roll: Which makes me mad since we aren't taking his car and I cant drive the suburban so I missing out on time that I could be practicing. At this rate I won't have 50 hours by June.
Valentine's day turned out to be not so bad. I got a few small things (all platonic gifts, of course). In the words of Gab "maybe next year" :wink:
Hope everyone had a good V-day too :)
p.s. both of the last two subjects have been the same matches song. LOL getting pumped for the reunion tour! hehe :D
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| "This is the soundtrack, play it back, of our restless lives..." |
| 02.14.04 (1:16 pm) [edit] |
Let it be known that I am the NFL Street SuperQueen. Damn that game rocks...what's even better than winning is seeing the looks on everyone's faces when I win. Even I have to admit, if I weren't me, I wouldn't think that I knew shit about football.
Kev: Who knew that you knew a Hail Mary was a play as well as a prayer...
HAHA :D
Jenni gave me her ski suit, so I just need gloves and stuff for tomorrow. Wooohoo! I'm pretty excited. As soon as I get the car trip out of the way...I'm really dreading that. Except for the Hershey Factory! I took a tour when we were coming back from our Gold Country feild trip in fourth grade, and haven't been since, but it's soooo fun so hopefully we'll do that. I doubt it though. I don't even have any money to buy stuff, although that's probably a good thing.
I am an idiot and realized that the progress report came yesturday! *smacks forehead* It wasn't as bad as I thought. There were only three grades, so the three of my worst ones were left out. I have an 89 in religion, and they don't care after the whole blowup about the paper. My mom is supporting me in my decision not to do the rewrite, so that's good. I'll do my one extra credit assignment and hopefully get the points for the crossword puzzle and since there will be more grades and it'll balance out that missing 20 points, it won't be a big deal.
I have to go take everything out of my room and my closet so the people can refinish my floors while we're away. This means I have to stay on my brother's futon for a few nights when we get back. Shit.
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| I hate stupid people |
| 02.12.04 (3:57 pm) [edit] |
I am so pissed right now. And I really am going to try my hardest to keep this brief, but I need to get everything out before I scream.
I don't think I've ever had a teacher I disliked more than Mr. Rush. :twisted: Not even a tiny exaggeration. He's making me do that paper over, AGAIN. After I already redid it once. The comments he made didn't even make any sense. He's being way too nitpicky. He's trying to find things to correct that don't exist!! It really does seem a) like he's insinuating that my writing sucks and I'm unable to write a paper b) that because I don't agree with him and refuse to change the fact that I think the song is an apocalyptic reference and it has symbolic images he's pissed off or c)both of those things. I already spent like 2 hours redoing that stupid thing and now I have to do it over? I sacrificed a lot of my opinions just because I wanted it to be over, but I refuse to just say what he wants me to say because he thinks his way is right. He was even making references to things that I had never even mentioned. Like talking about not including an Isaiah quote. Uh...there was no Isaiah quote dumbass. Imagine isn't religious in the loosest sense of the word anyway so this whole facade of writing a paper about what OT form it is is incredibly redudant and useless. I'm pissed, my parents are too. They thought it was pretty insulting that he said all those things about the paper when Alison and I had done a really good job the first time around, and now this?? WTH does he want/expect? I've never had anyone criticize my writing like he has, EVER in my life. I really am considering not doing a rewrite. I already did one, and just because he doesn't agree with what I'm saying I have to take time out of my break to do it over ANOTHER time? I don't think so. I have principles and if I beleive something and make a good argument for why I beleive it, I don't give a flying fuck whether or not he agrees, but it makes me so goddamn mad that he has the audacity to tell me that what I'm writing is wrong. Bastard. I'm not doing it over again. Period.
It's funny how it can go from being a really good day one day and the next is like a first class trip to Hell. On top of all that shit, I have a French quiz and a Geometry test tomorrow, as well as that English thing this morning that I don't think I did all that well on. I should have known this morning when there was a lot of traffic and I was freaking out while driving that Mr. Lippi would get mad at me for being late and then forgot to put on the damn parking brake and tried to get out of the car and it kept rolling forward. Thank God there was no car in front of us otherwise I'd be in superdeep shit right now.
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| "A dream is a wish your heart makes...." |
| 02.11.04 (3:10 pm) [edit] |
Today was a VERY good day. I don't want to elaborate too much, I'll just leave it at that, because I honestly doubt anyone cares. You might think you care, but don't ask because then I'll never stop talking about it :wink:
I actually don't have that much homework. *surprise* That's a change. Then I'm going to youth group tonight...fun! Except I miss like 15 mins of the OC and that makes me sad. Actually, the sad thing is that I get sad when I miss 15 mins of The OC. LOL And I have to get my brother a bday present because it's tomorrow, and I didn't know what to get before and I leave everything until the last minute. I'm starving but we don't have anything that has calories or fat or preservatives in this house so I may as well not bother. I tried telling her the other day that by deprviving us with regular food and trying to subside our hunger for junk food with organic peanut butter that she was just making us want actual food and junk even more, but she didn't agree. She's "just looking out for my heath" Ugh. Anytime I'm hungry from now on I should just think abtout todays assembly and I'll never want to eat food again.
Speaking of the assembly, it was really cool. I personally wished Erin or whatever her name was could talk longer because I thought it was really cool. That's gonna be me in 10 years or so...coming back to talk about my hit tv show and how cool of a job I have. *I hope* She seemed like she really enjoyed what she does, and I agree what she said about there being a career for every passion. Well, I have two passions, writing and watching tv and movies so writing tv and movies would be perfect for me. It's my dream to do that. Wouldn't that be awesome? I mean, even now with writing the play and getting to start directing soon (when are auditions again?) I can tell that it would be something I could do and I could do well. Every time I watch my Friends documentary, I just have this feeling and I know that doing something like that would make me so happy and it would be soooo cool to do. It's kind of like acting though...it's not guaranteed. I think my parents and people think I should have something more reliable to fall back on, but nothing's ever truely reliable. I mean, with the budget crisis, all sorts of people who have "reliable" jobs are losing them, so I might as well take a big risk you know? Although i'm not a big risk taker at all....but I think that if I want it THAT bad and I work hard and beleive that I can do it, then it'll happen for me :) (hmmm maybe I should be a motivational speaker...lol)
Ok, enough on my philosophy of life and my plans and hopes and dreams for the future. I have a birthday present to buy...
Later 8)
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| "If I'm not meant for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?..." |
| 02.08.04 (3:11 pm) [edit] |
Don't you wish that you could control your heart? I find it ironic that every guy I've ever been interested in me is either totally out of my league or there's no chance in hell of the feelings ever being reciprocated. It's like you want to be in control of how you feel, who you like and who you don't. I think things would be a lot easier this way. Unfortunately, they're not. :cry:
Sorry, I'm avoiding doing more work by thinking about the cruelties of life and the unfairness of the universe...
Oh Daniel Bedingfeld, how well you know me...(he's the guy who sings the song...lol)
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| "Motivate meeee...I wanna get myself outta this bed..." |
| 02.08.04 (12:11 pm) [edit] |
I can really relate to this song right now. It's noon and I'm in my pj's avoiding any and all work I need to do. I DID do my stupid rewrite of that religion paper though. Mr. Rush better like it...you know he won't though. Whatever, I did what I had to do, he can't make me do it over. I did all of his stupid corrections. Then I have to do the extra credit because he doesn't let you make up homework from when you were absent, so I have a lot of that to do. Then there's research for my Western Civ paper, which I am trying to do while making edits on our play (don't be mad Holly. :oops: I'm not rewriting anything, just switching around a few things that don't sound quite right. Oh yeah, I need to email it to you so you can print out a copy and we can do a read aloud this week to make neccessary changes. and fill out those forms.) I also have a pre-lab for chemistry and geometry homework. and french. AND that stupid English thing. WHY do I wait until the last minute for these things? :roll:
Hopefully I'll get to go driving later. OOOooooh maybe nighttime driving!!! :) And I can finally go on the freeway now. After yesturday's horrible accident. oh! I haven't written about that!
Ok, so we're down in Sausilito at a traffic light. It turns green and I go, but then I hear this big "BANG" and my instructor tells me to pull over. Some guy in a Porscha Boxster rear ended us. My instructor was nice (or stupid depending on how you look at it) and didn't ask for his info since it's just the driving school's car and I'm sure kids who are worse drivers than me do worse things. But it totally wasn't my fault. He was reading a map and put his foot on the gas too soon. That's what you get when you don't pay attention to the roads, kids. Then later, I forgot to check my blind spot and almost drove right into another car and that scared me sooo bad. I swerved just in time though. *phew*
Ok, I'm really going to get some work done now. :wink:
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| Raindrops keep fallin' on my head, but that doesn't mean my eyes won't soon be turning red... |
| 02.07.04 (5:45 pm) [edit] |
It's starting to rain here. And I'm getting cold. My fingers are numb. I'm already addicted to this blog thing. I purposely made no plans for today so I could do homework, but I've been majorly stalling. *sigh* Friends is on in the background. My DVD...this is hands-down the greatest TV show ever. I'm watching the one where Rachel is moving out...
Monica: This is another box of your clothes. I'm just going to label it "what were you thinking???"
Rachel: That's funny, because I was just going to go over and write that on Chandler.
LMAO :D
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| ground control to major tom, commencing countdown, engines ON! |
| 02.07.04 (4:11 pm) [edit] |
Do these colors that I've picked go together? This is very sad considering when I had my internship I'd go to like 3 hour workshops that taught you how to pick colors that went well together for web publication. Then we also had this swift (LMAO I am not even sure I know what that means, but I see you guys use it all the time, so I figured I'd succomb to the peer pressure and say it too...is that how you spell succomb?) little CD-ROM program that gave you really cool color combinations to use and there was like thousands of it. But our boss people didn't really like us to use that program since they wanted us to do the entire page BY HAND. That's right, including hand coding all the HTML instead of using Microsoft Frontpage. Any person who has ever worked with HTML knows how much that sucked. And if you don't, here's a little practice excercise. On any website, right click and go to where it says "view source" That's HTML my friends. And if there's accidentally an a where there's supposed to be a b, or you add an extra ,,: or whatnot, then it's really hard to find your mistake.
What was the original point of this blog? Oh right, the colors...
Will I ever be able to write a blog that's less than 300 words? :roll: :wink:
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